Songwriting

    It's who-knows-what-time in the night. Your body is lying still, but your mind is circulating one phrase. Instead of counting sheep, you're counting how many syllables the combination of words that thematically, impactfully, and melodically rhyme with that phrase must be. Then, after pouring your heart into your lyrics, you try to come up with a melody that creates the perfect sensations to convey your message as you transform your brain dump into something more beautiful - a song.

    In my world, where I was constantly made to conceal my emotions growing up, singing/songwriting is a brightly-lit window of emotional freedom. Being an art of discovery of yourself and the world around you, it serves as my connection to society.

When I was younger, poetry seemed like a language of its own. I vividly remember sitting in Mrs. Wright’s class in eighth grade, staring at words that were far too complicatedly-placed for my mind to even be willing to comprehend. What in the world did the author mean and why can’t they just blatantly say it? It wasn’t until we had to write our own poetry when I began to admire it. I honestly fell in love with the musicality and open-endedness of it. At the time, I was also into singing and thought it would be nice to try songwriting. Soon enough, it turned into my form of therapy. I hadn’t realized until later that songwriting is basically just poetry. What is so unique and cool about poetry/songwriting is that there is no correct or wrong way to do it and how the author can convey a message without necessarily stating what that message is. Another thing that intrigues me is how the author of a song or a poem could have a specific intention for writing their piece, but each listener or reader can interpret it differently as how it relates or applies to them.

Although I love writing songs, I avoid doing so many times because the feelings often get overwhelming. Sometimes, I am scared of how I will feel while writing about a particular topic that hurts me (more often than not, I’ll stop halfway through because I start crying or feeling bad haha) or how others will be affected by it if I potentially release or post the song. However, I realize that I should not avoid my emotions and instead embrace feeling whatever I’m feeling at the moment. Now, I turn any minor or major inconveniences into music, sometimes in a dramatic manner, but mostly to help me cope lol.

Performing and creating music continues to teach me the importance of vulnerability and being open to making mistakes while trying new things. So while I’m scared of starting the process of writing a song, I am thankful to have found a way to express myself while using my literal and metaphorical voice to (hopefully) positively help others.

To recap this blog post, please stream my music I need streams thank you very much I love you bye.